This Story Tells Love was not to win, but sacrifice

Credits: PRIYANKA SAINI (Intern Applicant at Shortfundly)

At still nights when only the clock used to create a sound- Tick tock ..tick tock…..
I used to stare at the lifeless walls as lifeless and pale as the moon …
and adrift in complete darkness dreaded, wondering what was more desolated – the night or my mind…. !!!!!
Behind the strong , rough , handsome face was my dead soul craving for not just a few but millions and trillions of answers….

Why wouldn’t it be, i had my entrance exam the very next day !!!

Days passed by and finally it was the time for my result…
Congratulations!!! SARVESH as my brother shouted tears rolled my eyes and i finally stood up to my parents presumptions ..

But hold on…. do not mis-concept me from one of those bookworms rather i was amongst the backbenchers…
This was because i just wanted to prove out some thing to this cruel society , so did i …
So then , Besides all the stress , pressure , agony and sleepless night was this day when just a smile on her face – my mother off course answered all the unsolved puzzles .
While i was not amongst the one who wanted to indulge in a field like engineering but that day i accepted it with all my heart not for me but for my brother , my parents , my friends and in turn the society to maintain that so called image of a well educated , sophisticated , decent package men ,any father would marry her girl too….

I dont know about others but that was the reality of my life …
And it really did mattered not only to my family but somewhere to me as well … because that’s how we were brought up .
NOW leaving all that behind i decided to focus and get the best for me and my family because it was not at all easy for them to get me to delhi for education purpose and handle my expenses at the same time
That was the reason i decided to make it worth doing .
Although dejected and worried about my family i took a step towards the new journey ….

STEPPING INTO DELHI

It was a tough journey all the way from roorkee to delhi.
Getting into the hostel room…
i was so tired that i would choose to go on a hibernation rather than a nap of a few hours….
But Strangely that was not the case ….
After, Arranging my clothes in the cupboard which was a great mission ( made me remind me of my mother … and how well she managed it all for me ) to accomplish altogether

I could not sleep , i don’t know what was it the excitement , the fear or was it i was missing my place already but i just could blink my eye all night .

I won’t ever forget such a night , rather a nightmare ,,, which i spent lying on the bed staring at the fan later realising that i didn’t even switch it on lost in my despair….

It was nothing of that i have been guessing about , it was the fear of the future , what next ????
Each tickling tail of the clock placed on the front wall scared the shit out of me ….
(Its strange how things change stepping into high school brings out maturity in you just in a single days or even a couple of hours sometimes. Its the hard fact that the teenager today are the most distressed ones ..
FRANKLY
Every third person has a story like this as pressure on students or the youth to be perfect has reached a point of crisis ,imposed career option, increasing suicidal cases , giving birth to sapiens who are nothing but a machinery with dead souls.
Each one of us as a student very much remembers the pressure cooker atmosphere we used to go through and the exams were nothing but a big hurricane , a natural disaster where the survival of the fittest was assured and others were left relentless.
This is a story all over the globe where the youth are under a lot more coercion than any other generations that existed till date. This entreaty enforced by the peer and parents is leading to the childhood depravity , also deterioration of physical and mental health )
BUZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ….BUZZZZZZZZZZZ

It was 6 am already the alarm woke him up – my room mate…to which he hit me hard and exclaimed “wake up buddy “….(little did he knew that i didn’t sleep)

Anyways i stood up to the very sound making it all seems perfectly casual …and stepped towards the bathroom …. While scrubbing up my teeth badly i looked myself in the mirror and the very sight of me myself dreaded me ….

I washed my face expelled everything from my mouth and tried to drive out all the unwanted figures , thoughts, emotions, plans going in my mind that was when i realised it was more than half an hour and xxxxx was shouting just outside the gate to get me out so that we don’t turn up late on the very first day .